Was I her first love?
Couple of days ago, I was flicking through one of my classmates (Alina) facebook photos. It was of her sisters wedding. Suddenly my eyes got stuck in one photo, where six girls from my school days were together. None of them were married but one gal, Miru, was in married attire. It is not that I didn’t know Miru is already married. I missed her wedding narrowly, she was married at a venue close to my house, I was invited too but I could not attend for some reason. My friends told me she was not happy that I did not showed my face in her wedding.
Before I tell you what I saw in my dream, it would not make sense if I don’t explain the background. Miru had “purposed” me when we were in grade seven. I did not took it seriously and plainly rejected it. It was the “first proposal” I got and to be honest the only one. In all my previous relationships I had purposed myself. She was sometime picked upon by her friends on that and I was too. I was not much bothered. We both left that school after grade eight but knew each others whereabouts as our home was close. We used to meet each other at school reunions and picnics. That was about it. We were normal friends but I had noticed she was always bit shy when I was around.
I went abroad for further studies. I were ok chatting with each other if we meet online but there was noting else between us. I had decided to go back home to get married and somehow she knew it, probably because we have same set of friends. Most of my friends didn’t know I had already chosen the girl I wanted to marry. I met Miru online about three weeks before I was about to go home to get married. She suddenly renewed her “proposal”, in a very different way. She just asked me “would you rethink of what you answered me back in grade seven?” I was bit taken by surprise but then, I clearly said that my feeling for her has always been the same and I am coming to get married to a girl that I have liked. She was fine with my answer. I invited everyone from our class to attend my wedding. Miru was invited too. She came and happily congratulated both of us.
That night, when I saw that group photo in Alina’s facebook page, I saw this weird dream. In the dream we were in a college setting, everyone looked much younger than we are now. All the classmates I studied with were there. I looked like as if I was affectionate to Miru. I was staying close to her and trying to get her attention. She looked like as if she was enjoying my company. Suddenly I realised all of us were playing game of telling one secret truth to all. It was Kapil’s (another friend from our class) turn to tell the truth. Kapil was embarrassed to say but he said that he once had crush on Miru. Everyone looked like they were surprised. To Kapil’s word, Miru responded, if you have had the guts to tell me than it may have worked. That word really hurt me as I still had the feeling on her in the dream. Suddenly everyone noticed my grumpy face and looked at me. The game continued. As the last persons’ secret was related to Miru, it was now her turn to reveal the secret she had. She took out her diary and flicked it through. She showed the words written in it to me and said, “Since I could understand anything about love, it has always been you who I have loved. I cannot think of anyone else.” Suddenly everyone seems happy and I was too. The happiness in my dream made me wake up.
I tried to go back to sleep soon after in a hope that the dream will continue. I could not. Her face kept flashing in front of me. She had the same shyness she used to show when she was around me.
I wished the god that she be happy wherever she is now. As for myself, I am happy that I am happy with my life.
Submitted by: Binodbikash Simkhada
Comments
Mr Binod you are sick. Stop peeping on other wives. Your habit will get you killed someday.